Hopeless...

Feeling sad... the more i try to make it close to me the more i getting further with it... am i that bad?! maybe my attitude... may be my action... maybe my react... makes her dicision become as same as i become... did that reall worth it? am ijust doing her job just to take care of her only? may her laugh only? am i really that horrible? am i really that scary? why if she wouldn't like me dun tell me but want myself to realise it? to get benifit? am i that easy to be fool? i am a stupid person that being fool easily... i'm getting started to hate myself... maybe in last generation i owe her a favour and now i get it... my heart was hurt.. yes she did it... just have to congratz her.. my mistake had been covered... i'm getting away from the road i heading to... maybe what my neighbour was riht... she is not a person suits me after all... is time to let it go.. CHU HAN!!! u are free... goodbye... maybe next centuries we only can be together... hope thats no more owe for me or you... u take care yourself... strong girl be strong... a tears for you to wish you the best...